internets accountability

i am done with you, coffee!!!!!! today is the second day in many months i haven’t had coffee. today alone i have slept ten hours as opposed to the usual four, and i feel groggy and swollen but good.

i know my battle with sleep is a lot more complicated than my caffeine consumption but at least this is a start.

starting to think about the inability to sleep in terms of resolution. i lie in bed and refuse to sleep because i don’t feel like i’ve resolved the day’s list of things to do or that i’ve done enough to deserve rest. and this weaves into much of the difficulty i have in understanding the gospel.

psalm 131 a few weeks ago was beautiful

O Lord, my heart is not lifted up;
    my eyes are not raised too high;
I do not occupy myself with things
    too great and too marvelous for me.
But I have calmed and quieted my soul,
    like a weaned child with its mother;
    like a weaned child is my soul within me.

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