i am done with you, coffee!!!!!! today is the second day in many months i haven’t had coffee. today alone i have slept ten hours as opposed to the usual four, and i feel groggy and swollen but good.
i know my battle with sleep is a lot more complicated than my caffeine consumption but at least this is a start.
starting to think about the inability to sleep in terms of resolution. i lie in bed and refuse to sleep because i don’t feel like i’ve resolved the day’s list of things to do or that i’ve done enough to deserve rest. and this weaves into much of the difficulty i have in understanding the gospel.
psalm 131 a few weeks ago was beautiful
O Lord, my heart is not lifted up;
my eyes are not raised too high;
I do not occupy myself with things
too great and too marvelous for me.
But I have calmed and quieted my soul,
like a weaned child with its mother;
like a weaned child is my soul within me.